One Second

Decisions made just like that can effect a lifetime of carefully laid plans. It's all it takes. One second. To derail an entire life's worth of work. To find the path again. To create, or destroy a relationship. To do, to undo.

Sure, we may spend lots of time weighing the options, playing the scenarios in our head, and listing the pros and cons. But after all of the back and forth, up and down, the actual decision itself takes a second.

I've made thousands of decisions in my life. Some were good ones, many were wrong ones, and I DO have some regrets. But there were a couple of decisions that I've made in the past seven months that have proven to be some of the best decisions I've ever made. These decisions have proven to be catalysts for what I've got now.

My love and I had been friends for a while, but we'd fallen out of touch for a few months. I had thought about him for the entire time. One day, I decided to send an email to him. After that, we went right back to emailing often. Of course, a few decisions on his part also helped the end result (like the first text message he sent me). Then I decided that I was going to go to Pittsburgh. This one was a decision I mulled over. I was nervous about meeting him because I had always had a wicked crush on him and I didn't think he had any interest in me beyond friendship.

My decision to move to Pittsburgh was a decision I made without any real debate. I just knew I wanted to be here. And after that, the decisions I made pertaining to our first day together were pretty easy as well. And the decision that I love him was... well... not much of a decision at all, actually. It just is.

As I've said, I am happier than I've ever been. I've got a great life with a great man, my other half. He's the piece that's been missing, the light I've been longing for, everything I've ever wanted and needed. He is everything to me, and makes me want to be everything for him.

His friendship saved me, and his love has made me a better woman. While I've worked hard on myself these past couple of years, I wouldn't be near where I am emotionally without him. I just hope I can do the same for him. I love him more than anything. Without several decisions, several seconds in my life, I may not have found him. I don't want to think of what my life would be without him.

I've decided I'm very happy I don't have to.